Happy Mother's Day To Me!

 I've been a mom for 10 whole years and 1 day.  It's been the best and worst thing ever!! Maybe you think that sounds horrible. But it's for real.

I remember when I was little and people would ask me, "what do you want to be when you grow up" I would say, " A MOM" !!

After a long time and lots of tears, and  at the age of 25 I had a Miss Kenlee Poo. 2 years later a Tanner Man and than another long time and lots more tears,  Miss Emmy Lou Whoo came.

I am so blessed.

Kenlee is my bestest little friend.  She loves to help.  She is smart, and pretty. She is growing too, too fast.
I love our little talks on my bed. 

Tanner Man is kind. He is a gentleman. He is tender hearted and would do anything for you. He like things to be fair for the other person. He is my example. I want to be like him!

Emmy is my baby. I love her! I'm so thankful I get to stay home with her.

Pippin is my Rat Dog. I love him I hate him.  He has to be by me most every moment. He loves me....and I love it.   He worries about Emmy. Really. He is always checking on her. If she cries and I'm in the other room, He'll perk up, look at me, listen, look at me again like he is saying "um hello...the baby is crying...go get her"

There are day's when I go to my closet and cry.  I cry cuz it's hard! I cry cuz I want to give up.  I cry cuz I suck at it. I cry cuz I have no patients and I say horrible things, and have horrible thoughts. I cry cuz I worry. I cry cuz I love them so much and want everything for them. I cry cuz they have this thing called Free Agency. I cry cuz I'm scared.

I cry because I have a Savior that has already felt all these things, He loves me. I wipe my tears. And start again. With the courage and knowledge that He is here helping me.

I'm just a girl. That has been blessed with 3 of Heavenly Fathers special little beings. I love them more and more everyday. I love their Daddy.

I wouldn't trade any of it, not the good not the bad.

Today I got to be with some of the best moms I know. My  own mom, my sisters, and the memory of my Grandma. Today was a good day.

There's also a "group" of  moms  I admire though I don't know them IRL... but they are real, they post real things, and help me remember I'm not the only mom who might cry in her closet. (Happy Mothers day to  Jennifer, Glam, Chief,  M-cat, Krissa, The Countess, Miss Mindi and Maggie Mae)

I love Mother's day. Not cuz sometimes I get a present , . Not cuz I expect to get pampered and waited on . But because everyday I get to serve them, and though some day's I hate it...  This day is a reminder that I LOVE IT EVEN MORE!!

Happy Mothers Day!

see ya love ya bye.