Ten Things To Smile About This Month

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I found a new game and I'm going to play because I'm still being POSITIVE! (which probably wont last much longer)



Ten Things To Smile About This Month

1. Our house is all done inside and outside.

2. The kids started school. They love it and I love that they love it.

3. Went to the Dentist yesterday, My kids have zero cavities. YAY! I was so worried cuz it's been like over a year since they've gone.

4. Me and my big sis #1 our playing the "Biggest Loser" I lost last week, but I wont next!! WILLPOWER baby willpower......???????

5. Fall time weather! It's rained hard the last couple of day's and I LOVE IT!

6. My Mom always makes me happy!

7. My sisters are my best friends. If ya want a good laugh come hang out with us! (but be forewarned, you might get grossed out or offended, but you will defiantly laugh!)

8. My church calling. I love the little primary kids. And I love not having to plan a lesson each week!

9. I haven't had a Dr. Pepper since June 6th. ( I know what your thinking Dr. Pepper make everyone happy, and how could I be happy without it. I just am. And I feel so much better!)

10. I want to exercise. This makes me happy cuz I have never wanted it before. So now that I want it maybe I'll do it?? We'll see.


Now go link up with Emmy and Play!

P is for POSITIVE!

I am so going to be positive in this post. Positive posts are good, and fun. I like reading other peoples positive posts and am wondering why I have never wrote one. I really am a positive person, (just not a positive blogger I guess). The same goes for when I write in my Journal. I guess there is just something in me that I vent on paper/blogger posts.

This week has been wonderful. The kiddies started school. Tanner is no longer a Kindergarten Baby Born In The Gravy. He has advanced into a First Grade Liar Liar Pants on Fire. He wants to tell the truth (that's what he tells me) But the lies just keep rolling off his tongue. I guess he's at that cute little age <-------positive where he's trying it out??? I don't know??

He's lied about cutting the cake by himself to brushing his teeth and allot in between. Any advice out there for helping a little guy understand it's just better to tell the truth???

Miss Kenlee Poo Started the 3rd grade. She loves it of course, she loves to learn and loves to socialize. I miss her. She's growing up too fast. And doesn't want braids in her hair anymore. What the heck. Can't she wear braids 'till she 16? Laura Ingalls did!

I love the structure of the school year, It usually runs quite smoothly, with homework, chores, Piano, and family time. And fall is coming! My favorite time of the year. (until the next season change.)

P is for POSITIVE!

HUGE I mean HUGE Pitty Party~

I confess:

I'm Depressed as hell!

I hate getting up in the mornings.

I nap for like 2 hours a day.

My house is a wreck.

I haven't done Ken's hair since Tuesday.

I'm not even sure if she's showered?????

I mope around all day, feeling sorry for myself and I can't get out of it!

Why???? Cuz life sucks, It throws curve balls at ya that hit ya right in the HEART.

On May 31st I counted "the days" on my calender, yup sure enough I was "late".

ON June 1st after a very bizarre dream about Grandpa Gus (who passed away 3 years ago, and who I loved and adored as if he was my own dad,) I took a pregnancy test and it was positive!

I was ecstatic, I've waited almost 5 years to get pregnant, trying drugs, ,positions, home remedies, herbal treatments and tonz and tonz of prayers.

For months, I've been miserable, my boobs hurt, my head hurt, I was tired, and nauseous. My favorite foods disgusted me, and foods I hated were delicious, my emotions were crazed, up and down crying then laughing, And I loved all of it! I wanted this so bad! And I wasn't going to complain, cuz I had waited so long to have it.

And then I started to feel better, a whole week. without the yucky symptoms and I loved this too! Finally I was starting to feel better.

My doctors appt. was on a Friday. I was so excited to call my mom Friday afternoon and tell her, but it never happened.

It was the worst Dr.'s visit I ever had, not only did I get violated (pap smear) But the ultra sound showed everything .....except a heart beat.

I was crushed. I didn't want to believe it. I tried so hard not to cry. But it came in buckets.

I chose to misscarry naturally (mostly cuz now that I wasn't prego, I would have no insurance.)

I waited two and half weeks before anything started happening, and it was horrible, a lot worse than my first loss, probably cuz I was much further along.

And now I'm ok with it. I'm not mad @ God. I feel at peace. BUT man I'm in the slumps and I'm having a hard time getting out of them.

I am so BLESSED with the two bestest kids in the world!! They're cute, they're well mannered, they're smart, they're talented and I love them!

Now if I can only be happy around them.

Wow, what a confession huh?